Soapy Solution

What do you during Controlled Movement Order and you are not part of the essential services?

Hubby is always creative, and a whizz at trying out new things. One thing he does is make soap. Yes, you read it - soap. Apt at this time! Mostly fragrance-free which is what our son prefers. But this time I have three bars for myself with which I experimented by adding different fragrances... They take a month to cure but I am looking forward to it already!

 What are YOU doing at this time?

A Year Later

How interesting that a year later, after posting about rejection and acceptance, I am now in this place where I have to deal with it again. 

This time it is because of doing what I thought was right. And finding out later how it turns out not the way I would have envisaged or liked. Trust seems to be lost, the relationship is in danger of being entirely broken. There is a strong sense of being rejected, of not good enough, of having made wrong decisions which need to be paid for. 

It is tempting to make apologies without meaning them. It is a self-preservation instinct to give reasons without being sorry for the betrayal of trust or the feelings hurt. It is always on the tip of the tongue to blame someone else. After all, I am a victim too, I reason to myself. I am only doing what I am supposed to do. 

And yet, I know now, that this is not good enough. Feelings of being wronged cant be unchanged. Facts dont dictate feelings. Logic doesnt rule sentiment. 

So after apologising,
all I can do is to pray, 

and wait

And trust that ALL things will work out for good, for those who love You, and are called according to Your purpose (Romans 8:28 "And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose.") And that You always do exceedingly, abundantly, above all we can think or imagine. 

Warms the Heart

Had lunch earlier with someone I knew from long time ago. He has certainly grown. Not just in size and age, but also in wisdom and stature. I listened to him as he espoused his plans, his hopes, his aspirations, and his wisdom for others.

It made me very thankful to the Lord that He led me to invest in people's lives in that season of my life. I dont look for it, but when it comes, it is heart warming indeed.

Now I wonder whether this will happen again. Will there be another season like that....

I don't know.

But thank You Lord for that little peek at the past, to look into the present and peer into the future.

Anointing and Character

It was a good meeting. Refreshed in the presence of the Lord, worshiping Him together with others who love Him. In a corner, a new dance came about. Towards the end, a new song emerged. The words came out so easily. The tune was His tune - a new song.

Then, still enjoying the refreshing, still brimming over with His joy, I go to put away the shofar and tambourine.

As I emerge from the room, I meet two dear people. They were looking for me. They wanted some of the anointing, they said, as they reached out to touch me. I was stunned. Never before had I been asked of this.

My response?

I should have done something religious I suppose. I should have said, "Let's pray," grabbed their hands and opened my mouth and hold a prayer meeting after the prayer meeting there and then.

Instead, I did something totally shallow.

I did something which probably hurt.

I laughed.

I laughed and jabbered on.

And on.

Later, when I got home, I felt really bad.

So there was anointing. The Lord gave for the blessing of His Body. I just happened to be the vessel.

It was obvious - having anointing does not equal having good character.

And last night, I was an example of that.

O Lord, TUTOR ME.