Monday, May 13, 2019

A Year Later

How interesting that a year later, after posting about rejection and acceptance, I am now in this place where I have to deal with it again. 

This time it is because of doing what I thought was right. And finding out later how it turns out not the way I would have envisaged or liked. Trust seems to be lost, the relationship is in danger of being entirely broken. There is a strong sense of being rejected, of not good enough, of having made wrong decisions which need to be paid for. 

It is tempting to make apologies without meaning them. It is a self-preservation instinct to give reasons without being sorry for the betrayal of trust or the feelings hurt. It is always on the tip of the tongue to blame someone else. After all, I am a victim too, I reason to myself. I am only doing what I am supposed to do. 

And yet, I know now, that this is not good enough. Feelings of being wronged cant be unchanged. Facts dont dictate feelings. Logic doesnt rule sentiment. 
So after apologising,
all I can do is to pray, 
and wait
And trust that ALL things will work out for good, for those who love You, and are called according to Your purpose (Romans 8:28 "And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose.") And that You always do exceedingly, abundantly, above all we can think or imagine. 

Tuesday, May 1, 2018

Unconditional - Then and Now

Some years ago, at our first connect group meeting, we were given paper plates. One one side, we were asked to one thing we were before we knew Jesus. It was easy for me to write. I always felt this way as a child, and well into my teenage and young adult years.....
I had always felt that others were preferred instead of me. The sense of rejection was high and stayed with me even when I accomplished many things, and had much praise. When others were promoted, I took it personally that I wasnt. When others were blessed, I found it hard to rejoice for them. This lie of the enemy, that I was of little worth, that I was never good enoughm influenced many of my relationships and affected many of the things I did. My identity in Christ was stolen... 

That is, until the truth of what Christ has done for me, and how much He loves me began to dawn in me. My Hubby, with his patient and unconditional love, epitomised God's agape love for me. Who else would die for me even when I was so very unworthy? Thankfulness continues to flow as this truth sets me free....  

Indeed, that night, at the group meeting, when asked to write on the reverse of the plate what Jesus had done for me, I could thankfully and truthfully scribe this!
What joy when I wrote those two words down! I felt another level of freedom as I pressed the crayon down harder. Such love! Such liberty!

Ephesians 2:10 New Living Translation (NLT)

10 For we are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago.
And that truth applies till today. Praise God! 

Wednesday, April 5, 2017

Comforting Forgiveness

‪These words from C S Lewis are strangely comforting 

"I think if God forgives us, we must forgive ourselves. 

Otherwise it is almost like setting up ourselves 

as a higher tribunal than Him"‬

Thursday, December 29, 2016


It is the end of the Gregorian Calendar.

Yet again, many people have passed away. Some more publicly than others. Some more peacefully than others. Some are more missed than others. 

Death is a constant. As is change.

The only other constant is God. 

Sunday, May 1, 2016

Good Work Will Be Completed

This is such an assuring verse. What a promise. It can be applied to anyone who belongs to the family of God. It's a promise God keeps! Imagine putting your name after "you". Goose bumps

Wednesday, October 28, 2015

A Special Night Out

Hubby has been involved in bringing this amazing artist over to town - Don Moen! What joy! 

Here he is, receiving a souvenier from a fan - the mayor! 

What an evening - a time of worship, prayer and he even released a special word for healing. He looked like he enjoyed himself - he went on for two and a half hours....! That was way beyond anyone's expectations. 
He brought a friend along - Lenny LeBlance. Honestly, Lenny sings like a dream. No special effects, no electronic gadgets, not even a keyboard. He just strummed and plucked his guitar... and melted our hearts, after taking us along on a journey with the lyrics and melody.  
May this be the start of more!

Wednesday, August 19, 2015

Being Diligent

It's been a while.

It's even on the header of this blog.


But I haven't been doing it so well. Forgive me Lord....

Be diligent. Effort is required. Exertion is implied.

Be diligent. Involves earnest endeavour.

Make effort, exert earnest endeavour to study, and to do so with haste. Don't waste time.

It's not being laid back. It's not being apathetic. It doesn't mean just waiting for something to happen.

Not at all.

It means to be forward, to be pro-active, to be intentional.

It means that words aren't enough. Actions need to back the words.

It means being diligent.